♥We love you Lola Taba..♥

we love you so much lola... we will miss you so badly!! I really dont wanna think that ur gone but we can do nothing but to accept it... until now lola we still cant believe it but as they say, God made that happen so u wont be in pain anymore, that u were already rest in peace....♥♥♥

♥ gave birth to Dastin Blake ♥

I never had a time to update my blog since we found out It was too delicate to get pregnant with a twins..I was 5 mos pregnant when we found out that and the remaining 3 mos was all in bed-rest situation... and of course I was too busy again when the baby came...just a quick story then..

so It was December 7 @ 5:30 am I was ran into the hospital at 2cm, thin. The doctor said I need to take the last ultrasound to know if the both babies are in head down or still in cephalic breach position..when they doing the searching, they noticed one of the babies' heartbeat is not beating anymore, so it took almost 1 hour to know if he still alive or what... I was shocked when they told me he's gone. at first I dont wanna believe them, but then I finally realized that when I saw him... after all 8 mos I carry him he just gone.. Thank God we still blessed to have one remaining...strong, fighting and healthy little baby boy.. He arrived at 9:51 pm, weighs 2.89 kg thats 6.6 lbs.. I even made him a facebook account coz I was so really excited.. haha..

so this is him

he can carry his head that high

his tatay is trying to sooth him

Its bonding time with my bff..

December 5, 2011, so its like a dream come true to meet little Subin here in Pinas! haha... Lacsa went home for her babies' christening. they stayed here for 1 month so we have time to get along with her other friends and kumares.. I'm so glad she even had a chance to see my blake before she go back to Seoul and me meeting Subin is a fun fun moment.... haha..

♥my life, my love♥

Whenever Im so upset I wanted to read this over and over again..
I never get tired reading this! 

When we were in college you always picking me up and driving me back to my house, that you were always there for me when I was about to give up my life bcoz of family problem, u were always telling me to be strong..

I got sick a lot and you were there to help me to the hospital. You love cooking foods for me. Though we dont have the same taste when it comes to food, you are still cooking my favorites. We go to the mall but we were so aloof to each other.

after college we both start working at Iqor. We have the same company but we never seen each other becoz we have different building..haha..I still remember when my wallet lost and the guard gave it to you becoz of our picture on it..Its your bday then but instead of giving u a gift,what I did was broke ur heart..I was so down and confused that time bcoz of religion matter thats why I decided to breakin up with you..I got a work and we started to fix our relationship again and start it over..

when I get pregnant with our twins we are the first happy couple to know it.. You still there until we knew that I have a risky preggy situation..you were there to nurse me, to feed me while on bed, u never stop taking care of me even late at night..though I always say this everyday, again "I love you".

be strong Ave!

yesterday, Nov 24,2011, this is the saddest part of my life..they came to ask my letter pertaining to wat I did,as we all know wat we did is a very sin in my grew up religion.. ganyan pla ang feeling.,gus2 qng umiyak habang kinakausap nila aq pro pinipigilan q lang.. di q naman sinasadya dahil di q expect..pro they told me na when everything settled, I am always welcome to fix wat went wrong.. but on the other hand, I have no regrets what God gave me.. He gave me two cute little boys and I cant wait to see them..they are my angels! I was bless to have a twins! cant wait to show them how greatful they are to see the world full of joy..everybody is waiting for them..just hoping them to come out at the right time..

7 months/34 Weeks..

Pahirap ng pahirap ang ctwasyon q..nag start na qng nagmanas..di narin aq makakain ng marami pro every hour sumasakit ckmura q sa gutom..haggard ang itsura q pro di nman aq tumaba..lalo pa clang bumigat, lagi qng nararamdamang gus2 qng magpupu pro pag nsa cr na wlang lalabas..at 33W panay na ang paninigas nila na sobra nman sa sakit, bukod pa sa tinatamaan nila lagi mga internal organ q like sikmura at dibdib kya di aq makahinga ng maayos lagi.. Ang pinaka ayaw q pa sa check up ay I.E. grabe ang sakit ng gwantis..kapag nararamdaman q ang lahat ng ito gusto ko na tlaga clang lumabas,pro 1 mo nlang., I feel like nervous dahil I cant imagine myself undergoing first time operation..sa twing naiicp q talaga pano ba ang proseso ng CS? Iniicp q nlang na sana maging matagumpay ang mga doctor at wala kaming komplikasyong tatlo..ang saya nga namin ni mark ng malaman naming pumasa kmi sa charity ng AUF hospital.,mga 15K to 20K doon, super laki ng masesave namin kesa sa mga offer na package ng ibang hospital na may 35K,45K at 60K.. Pro sana sa paglabas nila, di na nila sana kylangan ng incubator,sana maging malakas cla at ako...blessing ang twins namin.! Everyone in both side is excited to see them! They were askin us what their names are? Cno bang kamuka nila? Matangos ba ang ilong? Maputi kaya? Nagmana ba ng eye lashes sa tatay nila? Hay...kahit kaming mag asawa ay excited na sa kanila.! Di na importante mga un, basta hangad namin ni hubby na sana malusog ang katawan nila at walang diperensya.. Wala na cgurong mas hihigit pa sa excitement ng isang ina...

6 months/27 Weeks..

My most unforgetable preggy experience is that when I need to be on bed for 3 months until delivery..as in totally bedrest! there are times my back really aches a lot then at the same time specialy when Im not comfortable, babies are starting to contract. Sometimes I get nervous every time I woke up in the morning and I feel like nothings moving inside my tummy, until u will see my smile when tiny little part will started to moved.u will feel relief and greatfull..nothing is more happiness when u see them moving,weird moved and it really hurts a lot but worth it, esp when u touch their tiny bones.... feels like u r already holding them...3 more months and I cant really wait to see and take good care of them....i hope I will deliver them at the right time,, with a healthy and a normal body..I didnt miss a chance to take good care of them,I give them all the vitamins and minerals they need as much as I can..I've undergone a lot of injections,some are painful, 3 days painful and bruse..I did all the doctor's advices just to stop preterm labor..